As I sit down to write this series, my heart is heavy and my emotions are overwhelming. It’s a story about a guy that I fell in love with, and the ups and downs. I want to share this story with you, not only to process my own feelings, but also to provide comfort and guidance to anyone else who may be going through a similar experience. This series will be raw and honest, but I hope it will ultimately inspire and uplift those who read it.
Chapter 1: A Chance Encounter
I have always been a solitary person. My fear of broken relationships has kept me away from socializing, and I have lived a robotic life with work, my pet, and taking care of my family.
But on December 12, 2022, everything changed.
It was just a simple “Hi” on WhatsApp, but soon we were delving into deeper conversations about our past experiences and apprehensions. I was intrigued by this person, but I pushed him away, just like I had done to so many others.
To my surprise, he didn’t give up on me. He said he was open to sitting down and talking with me, and even though I tried to resist, he saw right through me. Suprisingly, I don’t even know the last I heard something like that. He could sense my fear of people leaving and my belief that all relationships have an expiration date.
But he didn’t leave. Instead, he listened, understood, and empathized with me in a way that no one had before. I don’t know what it was about him, but something made me keep talking to him.
As we continued to chat, the suspense grew. I didn’t know where this was headed, but I couldn’t help but feel excited and nervous at the same time. There was something different about this person, and I couldn’t shake the feeling that our conversations were leading to something more.
I don’t know what made it to keep on going guess I might never know the concrete reason ever. But this for sure was not going to be a 2 days conversation.
There was more to it.
Chapter 2: My Apprehension for an Overseas Relationship
On that very first day of our chat, there was an unmistakable excitement that pulsed through our conversation. It was like the universe had conspired to bring us together, and we were both equally captivated by the thrill of getting to know each other. There was an unspoken connection, something intangible that drew us closer with each passing message.
But then, like a plot twist in a movie, he casually mentioned that he lived outside India. It hit me like a curveball I never saw coming. The thought of an overseas relationship stirred a tempest of apprehensions within me, a storm I had weathered before.
I had spent countless nights, tossing and turning in bed, wrestling with the emotional chasm that distance could create. The toll it took on maintaining connections with friends and family who were miles away had left me scarred. So when he revealed his location, I instinctively started building walls, attempting to push him away. Or at least, I tried to.
His response caught me off guard. He reassured me that he would return once he graduated. It was a promise that sounded different from all the others I had heard before. In that moment, I allowed myself to believe it. For once, I decided to take a chance on something that felt inexplicably right. I chose to believe in us.